I got an interesting text today. My landlord at my office sent me a message telling me it was time to renew my lease(has it really been a YEAR?) and asking was I going to renew. Well, there had been some chatter around my office about raised rent, so I was not to be fooled into simply answering yes or no to such a seemingly innocuous inquiry! I confidently shot back a text asking what the new terms were. I had a really good rate for the first year at my gorgeous office space, so I was definitely expecting a rise...but imagine my surprise when the figure she sent was a 41% increase! Wow.
I like to think of myself as a conscious individual. Like the little internet meme says, I am a spiritual being having a human experience. I don't eat sugar(hardly ever). I do YOGA, for Christmas sake. I meditate, and not just before going to sleep. I should be prepared for this. I should take it in stride. But this is big money. Every month, not just an occasional extra bit in the collection plate at church. Where will the dolluhz come from, will I ever eat again, will my daughter have to drop out of the college she loves, freakety freak freak out. I was in a tailspin, catapulted into a fearful place where money does not flow, the sun does not rise, a place where I had become...duhduhduhduhhhhhhhh...A VICTIM OF CIRCUMSTANCE!!! As my friend and chiropractor used to say, I got "lifed." Fortunately, the downhill ride was over quickly.
I see Life like a train, always carrying me somewhere. Where it goes depends on me. I choose my destination deliberately by focusing on that which I desire, and carelessly or unconsciously by worrying, which is simply meditation on unwanted things. If I know I want success, joy, peace, and abundance, I use my will to focus my attention on those aspects of creation, I strengthen my power of focus through the practice of meditation and yoga, and by eating well, mostly steering clear of highly processed or sugary food. I check my progress regularly using my human GPS...my emotions. When I am on the right track life feels heavenly. If it feels hellish I have probably been derailed by fear or judgement. Like when my rent went up, I became fearful that I would not be able to afford the new rate, and maybe a little angry at my landlord for laying this stress on me. For a short time I focused on that fear and judgement, and when I did...BAM., "lifed." I got back on track by shifting my focus into high gear toward my ongoing goal of increased abundance. The effort that paid off quickly by leading me back into peace of mind and a more positive attitude that allowed me to appreciate the situation as an opportunity for growth instead of the negative perspective that I was a victim.
Sounds easy, right? Maybe not always. But that is why its called "practice." Even a small effort to focus my attention on what I want made a big difference, quickly. It really works.Try it! Start now. The train of Life is always on the move....make sure you are headed in the direction you want to go! Your journey. Your destination. Your choice.
I have developed a bit of a reputation. Now I know what you are thinking...NOT GOOD. Right?! Back in high school "a rep" meant that a girl was known around town as...well, you get the picture. But in this case it IS a good thing. Very good.
Some time back I started seeing hearts . Heart-shaped clouds, queso drips, radishes, leaves, splashes of coffee on the condiment bar at the coffee shop. Thanks to fancy technology, I have been able to capture these hearts and share them with the whole world! Or at least the part of the world contained in my social networking site. Over time other people began posting pictures of hearts they saw in real life. They began tagging me, and eventually just posting the pix on my page. A regular love fest.
It occurs to me that that's how Love works. Love, as Mercy, flows most powerfully toward those in deepest need. Once it is received, perceived as Grace, (something we did nothing to deserve, a free gift with purchase, a get out of jail free card) it builds within us, transforms us from the inside out. In time we are so be-loved, we overflow. Love moves our world, shapes and molds our environment to draw others to us, and finally pours into their lives through us. An unending chain of love.
What we see around us is a reflection of who we are. With this in mind, start looking. If you find you don't like what you see, never fear. Remember...Love flows most powerfully toward those in deepest need.